Only looking up
Published 12:03 pm Wednesday, January 17, 2024
New Year’s Eve and New Year’s Day––they had passed in a frenzy of glittery necklaces, loud, golden horns that blasted through midnight, and women in velvety dresses.
I’d spent the last weekend of 2023 reading The Great Gatsby in the guest bedroom of a friend’s house. White sheets, morning light and pour-over coffee will forever paint that memory of New Year’s. It’ll also be painted with notes of glimmering black and gold, the vivid blue cover of Gatsby and green kitchen walls.
The morning after New Year’s Eve is always much quieter. It all moves a little slower, like a car in first gear. January 1 hauls the weight of 364 more days. Heavy as that may be, a few days later, I was lying in bed finishing up The Great Gatsby when I glanced at the bulletin board in my room that pins all things special to me.
Hoisted on top of it was the glittery silver necklace, the little horn and a shiny crown that read “Happy New Year!” all of which I rang in 2024 with.
Silently, the items dangled there, juxtaposed with my colorful and loud memory of them. Everyone had laughed that night, kissed at midnight, then dwindled out the front door and into 2024. Now, we’re all back to the grind with our resolutions and hopes and dreams.
I went back to work for the first time a couple of weeks ago after New Year’s, and as I exited downtown Greer, city workers were standing on ladders at the lampposts unwinding Christmas garlands.
Just like that, the parties were over.
It’s hard to relocate the joy of the two-month-long celebration that is Thanksgiving, Christmas, then New Year’s, especially in the day-to-day grind.
But since January 1, I’ve found a new contentment with life. There’s a lot of beauty in the unknown––but there’s a lot to know just from trusting God.
“His will, not mine” is a lingering phrase I find on my left and my right, in front of me and behind me, because I know my story is already written by God. Therefore, it must be good.
I’m writing the column in my warm bed on Monday night, 11:39 p.m., and the Happy New Year crown, the shiny necklace––they dwell here beside me, hanging on my bulletin board, and I’ve deemed them my reminder that 2024 won’t sting with the pushing and pulling I fought throughout 2023.
“Blindfolded, walking with arms wide open” is a line I threw out on New Year’s Day, referring to the next 12 months.
My boyfriend then yelled, “Yes! That’s the gospel! Exactly.”
Frustrated that he was totally right and walking like that is totally uncomfortable, I deemed it another reminder that 2024 shall be, nonetheless, adventurous.
I close my eyes and envision 2024 in a fresh, purple hue, framed by flowers and tall trees that were only just sprouting last year.
And hanging there with my New Year’s paraphernalia, an invisible picture that comes with it, framed and nailed to the wall with a permanent crack in the glass that serves as yet another reminder that 2024 is only looking up from here.